Jake Riel

The Sun is always there. It is the rotation of the Earth that causes to have its day and night. It is just the perfect rotation of the Earth  in the vast silent universe that gives balance of everything within the atmosphere of it that sustains life. Perhaps for human beings, it may also just take the right spin to have the right life we need more than what we aspire. The Sun is just always there. The Earth is a sphere so the Earth needs to rotate to receive light. The earth can be flat because it can still rotate to be lighted, yet being flat will make it hard to have a smooth transition from darkness to light and vice versa. Sunrise is abrupt in a flat Earth, so as sunset even if the Earth maintains precission and revolution.

Rafa, LJ, ms tin, ms joy, ms quinnie, and tam… they are just few people who have endured and shown trust in me all through out these trying times in my life. I am very thankful for them because they have not ever taken away or have missed even for a single moment supporting me from the base and from within.

today is not just an ordinary day for me. I met my friends out of the blue. And if i may categorize, i met my friends in my innermost circle. Lately, I’ve been in the most crucial time of making lifetime decisions and  I have to admit, I cannot decide for myself.

Yes, it may be true that I have somehow transcended the feeling of being inferior partly by acquiring my first call center job, and mostly by the help of counsels like Dr. Gatlabayan, but the stigma of the tragedy last year because of heart ache and love has given me this automatic reminiecing of the sad and dark time in my life in the midst of being alone. I have said many sorries and i have cried a lot of tears, and even if  I have humiliated my self for apologizing for my mistakes, there is always a part of me that seems to be forever submerged in melancholy.

But the fortunate event of meeting these people unanticipatingly empowered my pretending-not-be-a-weary heart to move my feet to walk again towards the hill. And the feeling of being like a freshman I experienced exactly four years ago occupied my paralyzed thought and gave birth to my extinct soul. I just need to be with them, just to be with them until I cross this gap that separates everlasting happiness from forever frustration. And i don’t want to be sorry for eternity…

Daanin sa iyak ang kalungkutan

Sanayin ang sarili sa kahirapan

Bigyan ng puwang ang kawalan

Upang hamunin ang kapalaran.

Sa lahat ng ibong sa langit ay malaya

Katumbas ng sinumang maluho’t marangya

Sa puso marahil ay nagdadalamhati

Dahil sa damdaming ikinukubli

Subalit may isang ako na hindi maginhawa

Subalit may ako na lahat ay ginawa

Ngayon lahat ng ako’y sadlak sa sigwa

Dusa’t pasakit, nasa’n ang ginhawa?

Pinilit kong isa-tao ang aking mundo

Pilit winaksi sa mundo ang aking puso

Umibig, umasa’t lumaban sa pagkamuhi

Hirap at lungkot, hinarap matapos isipi.

Pag-ibig talagang naging marahas

Subalit dahil sa taong akong nangahas

Puso’t kaluluwa ay napaatras

Ng maging mga kaibigan ay malamang inahas.

Pag-ibig, isang bagay na lahat ay taglay

Ligaya ang dulot sa taong nagsasanay

ibigay ang ako na buo sa ikaw

Kamatayan ma’y hindi ito mananakaw.

Kaluluwa’y nag-udyok upang umigib

Upang sumaya ang pusong umiibig

Subalit nang ang ako ay maging sarili

Nawala ang ikaw, naging makasarili.

Anong bagay ang walang bagay

Anong nasa isip ang walang malay

Tanong ng puso kong lubhang matamlay

Ang konting lahat ko’y bakit walang buhay?